I am starting this blog in a attempt to document my annal behavior. I am aware that I am a socially awkward, judgmental, grade A perfectionist. The only reason I haven't been cast aside by society is because of my petite colorful appearance. When your five foot two and take 3 hours every morning making sure you look cute and innocent people can't be mean to you. The moment anyone starts to get mean thats when you get wide eyed and pigeon toed. Every one looks like a ass when they pick on some not their own size. This is just one example of my manipulative nature.

Now back to the fact that I am seriously screwed up just like so many other people now a days. I am going to start by defining perfectionism. According to some guy called Amachek there are two types of perfectionism. there is Normal perfectionists who "derive a very real sense of pleasure from the labours of a painstaking effort" and there are neurotic perfectionists who are "unable to feel satisfaction because in their own eyes they never seem to do things well enough to warrant that feeling of satisfaction". I am at the least a neurotic perfectionists..... probably worst. The other day I was going through my yahoo homepage and found a article that said researchers have linked perfectionism to binge eating, hoarding, anxiety, substance abuse, and an increased risk of oxidative and nitrosative stress, which cause cell damage and inflammation, leading to a whole host of serious health problems. I LOVE the Today section on my homepage, with out it I would never be able to self-diagnose my psychological problems while learning who looked hotter on the red carpet and which star will be firing their stylist. 

I have personally gone through almost all of the symptoms Dr. Yahoo described.